Choice.

"Two roads diverged in a wood and I--

Took the road less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost

I wish at the end of it all I could say the same

I realized that there’s just so much truth in the saying “It’s always easier said than done.”  A few months ago, I was in that exact same position.  Lost. Confused. Heck, I was ready to flip a coin and let it decide for what I envisioned as my “grand” destiny.

It’s hard enough to choose from two different paths, knowing how it can change me and my whole life. To make matters worse, these fork roads never seem to stop existing.

Whenever I try to look beyond the path for every less-traveled-by road that I chose, it’s always like seeing my pot of gold, only it vanishes just when I thought I’m about to reach it. As I take another step, as I go deeper and deeper, nearer and nearer, one by one, my butterflies of hope and my garden of faith starts to wither and vanish. I’m afraid that soon enough as everything starts to crumble right before my very eyes; I’ll forget the reason why I’m at this exact same position right now. I’m trying to hang on to what’s left of the same hope and the same faith that brought me to this place, believing against all the odds that someday it will make all the difference.

Buang

I now have a new commitment and that is to blog at least once a week. Just now, I was rummaging my brain for a post-worthy topic for my blog only to find out that my brain's too cluttered for it to think clearly. 

Shame. 

My apologies to Paula for she will be reading a very senseless blog post tonight. Please give me time to adjust. My brain got a bit rusty you know. It still needs some warming up. hehe. Hope you understand.

Rant

"And when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

- The Alchemist

Well, not today honey. It's too bad that it seems like the universe hasn't gone back from vacation. Cause if it did, I would've gotten my dream job. i'm riding solo for now.

I'm trying to do everything that i can in order for me to get my dream job. I admit, I was confused back then. It was with my own decision that I got in this shit hole in the first place. But haven't I suffered enough? It has been two weeks already and the company that I applied to hasn't called me for my final interview. As pathetic as it sounds, I'm still hoping against hope that i still have a shot at it. At this point, waiting is the hardest thing to do for me. I don't know until when I can or when I could hold on before I lose my last ounce of hope.

Rise From The Dead

Type test....type test.....man, this is harder than I thought! I haven't written anything on my blog for ages! I admit, I have been so caught up with the radical changes in my life, both personal and professional, that I've ignored my pangs for blogging. Now I'm struggling on making my thoughts coherent. Tsk. A really big price to pay  if you ask me.

Now, where to start?

I'm not happy and I'm not exactly sad either. So where does that put me? I have no idea. I have been feeling a lot of emotions all at the same time lately that my brain already stopped giving logical explanation to everything.

Honestly, I don't know what to write. I'm just typing whatever's popping out of my head right now.

And then there was nothing.

“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. 

If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.

If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway. 

For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” 

― Mother Teresa

Hey...

How are you? I hope you're doing fine. By the way, I miss going home with you.

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