Have you ever ridden a roller coaster before? Do you know the part where in the train slowly goes up (This one’s in EK) as it tries to gain speed and momentum before it catapults straight down the track? I remember the first time I rode on that humongous piece of metal. I was literally trembling because of the height it’s gaining as it goes up. I also remember cursing my friend for talking me in to riding it. I wanted the ride to end the moment that I realize why it has a great reputation in the bone-thrilling-ride department. All that I could think about that time was that I didn’t want to fall, I didn’t want to die.
I can’t believe that I experienced that same feeling again…But not with the roller coaster but with them. You see I used to have commitment issues. I was very careful not to be attached to anyone or anything. That’s why I always end anything that requires commitment even before it starts. Just like in the roller coaster ride. It will take you up, making you feel all high and mighty. It will entice you with the view and caress you with the cool breeze, making you forget that falling would mean death. Yes, that’s the term, FALLING. I was afraid that I might fall so deep in love (I’m not only pertaining to romantic love) with what I do or with who I’m with that I would end up hurt and bleeding. What if the safety bars are broken? Or what if the ride didn’t run smoothly as expected? Or what if there’s a problem with the track? There’s just too much risk and I didn’t think I was up for that. I thought my feeble heart wouldn’t be able to handle it. Then they came, the people whom I consider my second family. I don’t know how, but they were able to open my eyes and make me see that life is all about taking risks and facing its consequences head-on. They made me appreciate the twists and turns that the ride offers. Sure there may be one too many vertical hoops during the ride and there are no guarantees that you will not end in pain…. Well actually, who hasn’t? Besides, if you can’t take it anymore you can always scream and curse your lungs out. Surely they will scream and curse with you, making you realize that you are not alone. You never were alone. And right before the ride ends, you’ll realize that was all worth it and you’ll definitely go back for more.
Not taking risks would mean not dying, but it would also mean not being able to live. So yes, I have now gone out of my comfort zone and I’m ready to give my heart and soul to them. I have ridden the “Roller Coaster of Commitments.” I’m way past the falling part, and I am now ready to enjoy the rest of the track. I’ll just let my immature doubts and fears be blown away by the wind along with my hair as I succumb to the crazy-happy feeling that the ride offers. And maybe I’ll also pull the no-hand-trick while I’m on it, just to add up to the thrill. Hehe.